Surrender: Beyond the Scope of my Imagination

I want a tangible dream. I'm sure I made that clear a couple of blog posts ago.

I want a dream I can actually see in my imagination.

Let's face it though. I've had some minor dreams come to mind. Little things like getting an article published in a magazine, or even having my own column in a magazine. Something insignificant like writing song lyrics that are actually heard.

Even if those are reachable dreams (and sometimes I feel like that's a HUGE "if") they just seem so...insignificant.

I want to do so much more with my writing, and I think that's my problem. It's not that I don't have any tangible dreams. It's that my passion for my writing can take me far beyond the scope of my imagination. No matter what, I will never be able to get where I want to be with my writing because I can't see that far.

I know. I have an issue with surrender. I hold onto hurt, and even if I let go for a moment, I always find myself snatching it back up again. I don't allow God to have the control over my life that I know I need to give Him.

I've seen just a glimpse of what life would be like if I get a taste of God and His presence. It's something like no other... a feeling that I don't think can be imagined by someone who hasn't experienced it.

And I know there is more for me.

Just like I know there is more for my writing.

I wonder what God can do with me if I surrender this to Him. He can take me to a place NOBODY can even comprehend.

He can see beyond the scope of my imagination.

You say you have a plan for me

And that you want the best for my life

Told me the world had yet to see

What you can do with one

That's committed to Your calling

I know of course what I should do

That I can't hold these dreams forever

If I give them now to You

Will You take them away forever?

Or can I dream again?