I am Living in my Own Little Bubble from Now On

I'm feeling old. This is somewhat of a problem because I am only seventeen and a grade ahead in school.

One of my cousins (Sarah Jane) turned seven yesterday. SEVEN! I am living in denial. 

I haven't seen her since December 2004. She was still two. She was mine. She even hugged her family "good-bye" when my mom, my sister, my dad, and I were leaving to head back home from their apartment. I had every intention of taking her home with me. 

Now, she is seven. No. I refuse to believe it.

My other cousin (Tommy) is seven too. I think the last time I saw him was in 2003. That might've been the year we went to Utah for Christmas. Yesterday, my aunt (his mom), told me that he has a blog. It's private because he's so young, but in my mind he is way too young to be able to use a blog. 

In my mind, one of my cousins (Karina, Sarah Jane's eldest sister) is still two. Now, she's twelve now, but I am living ten years in the past. She stayed at our appartment in Virginia for about a week after her first sister was born. I was only seven at the time, but I remember being in the parking lot in front of the classmates and her screaming "IT'S A-LISSA!!!!" I can somewhat picture her in my mind from when she was two. 

And it doesn't matter that the last time I saw her she was eight. There is still a part of me where she is two. 

My cousins are growing up way too quickly...especially the side of the family I'm closest with. When it comes to my biological cousins on my mom's side, I don't really mind them growing up. I haven't seen them in years, and we don't talk. I don' remember them at all; a few of them are my age though. I'm not close to my cousins on my dad's side of the family. They're both older than I am, so them getting older doesn't bother me. 

But at this rate, the youngest of my cousins (who aren't even a year old) will have graduated college before I even meet them. 

Until then (and even after) I will continue to live in my bubble where my cousins are trapped in a time-warp and have not aged. 

(And no, that is not one of my cousins in the picture, but he is cute, and I like the bubble!)

Take care!

Lissa Kristine