I Felt Like I Should Blog for Once...

I don't write in here as much as I should, but I don't really have much to say. Or at least, I don't have anything to say that I'm willing to share on here. Nothing's really going on in my life. Sunday was the Fourth Annual Purpose Driven Life Day. Today (Tuesday) is exactly three years from the day I first went to (what was once called) Velocity. 

I'm really not sure what I should write in here. I am working on a blog entry that I can post in the future, but I won't be able to post that until Sunday at the earliest. If I get to post it at all. I'll figure this all out later.

So, I guess I'll close with a poem I wrote last year. I'd love to post more recent work, but none of my 2009 poems are really ones I'm ready to share with anybody yet. Well, all except for one, which is the second version of a poem I wrote with my friend, Alex, in 2007 called "Mama Moo Moo." I might share that one later. 

Take care!

A Prayer (February 10, 2008)

I long to hear that voice inside

when no one makes a sound

I long to feel Your touch

when no one is around

My life is made of shattered hopes

and I've learned how not to dream

How can a heart so broken still beat?

How can this silence scream?

Once I saw that glimpse of light

I felt the chains break

but darkness has come again

and I don't know how much more I can take

I have been beaten

and pain is my familiarity

but my heart cries for comfort

my soul begs to be free.

Hold me, though I'm broken

I am filth and I am dirt

right now I am nothing

but nothing can still hurt

Do not be fooled by a smile

I put on my unworthy face

Inside I am a broken child

in need of Your amazing grace

Hold me tonight as I cry

Promise You will never let go

And when I feel the opposite

I will trust the promises I know.

When I feel alone

I will trust You are there

When I feel invaluable

I will trust that You care

When I feel ugly

I will trust that I am beautiful still

and when I feel I deserve this pain

I will trust that is not Your will

In everything that is left of me

this is what I'll do:

I will use what's mine to trust these lies

but first, I will give it all to You.